Feeling Crafty

The other day while shopping with a friend, i came across the cutest burp cloths. The crappy part was that they were $15 for just 3. I couldn't see myself spending that much on something that's going to be used for cleaning up after a newborn. I decided i could make my own. I went to the store and bought a pack of 12 pre-folded cloth diapers for $12 and a quarter of a yard of material for $1.50(will make 2 burp cloths). I also had more material at home. I went home, got to work, and this is what i came up with.

I think i did a pretty good job for it being my first time. They are not perfect but i sure do like them. I made some girly ones for my friends just because i love giving homemade gifts. Well, that's what I've been up to for the last 2 days.

1st Day Without Baby

Yesterday was the first day I've spent without my Ayden since he's been born. Grandma came down here to see her boyfriend who lives near us and offered to take Ayden along with them on a hike. I agreed, thinking it's time i let him go for a whole day. I woke up to Eric shampooing the carpet throughout the house, it needed it bad. I started packing Ayden's things and made sure he had plenty of food and diapers for the day. I fed him breakfast at 10 so that he wouldn't be hungry till after they got to their hiking destination. I said my goodbyes and he was gone for the day.
We decided since the baby was gone that we should go on a date. Something we really haven't done in 10 months. Eric took me to see The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2. I loved it!! I could really use some girlfriends. Eric was the only guy in the theater. Haha. Afterwards, we went home and finished shampooing the carpet and moving the furniture and things back. Around 4, we went to Chili's for dinner. I was really craving one of their buttery steaks. Mmmmm.....It was so good. We then went to walmart and picked up a cheesecake for dessert.(much cheaper then the tiny piece we'd get from chili's)
I was worried about my baby. She said she'd try to be back by 5 and it was already 6. We couldn't get ahold of her....but i knew that he'd be ok. I didn't get to see my son till 9pm. At that time he was just too tired and had to go to bed. While putting away the things from his hike, i noticed that only one diaper out of the seven i had packed was gone. I had a feeling this had happened because when i changed him to put him to bed he was really wet and red. I never let my son go long with a wet diaper...he has really sensitive skin and gets rashes easily. I was a little upset. While continuing to clean out his bag, i noticed that only one bottle had been used. I told Eric to ask his mom how much he ate and she said 2 bottles, which i believed after seeing his formula container missing 2 servings. But, being gone for over 11 hours, i expected him to have at LEAST 3 bottles and a cup of juice. This kid doesn't let you know when he's hungry. He could go 6 hours without food and you'd never know. I told her that he needed to eat every 3 hours, but apparently that didn't happen.
Needless to say, i'm not to sure about leaving him for a day again. I know he got home safe and sound, but it just bothers me that he wasn't changed or fed properly. I'm having our second baby in just over a month and need someone to stay at our house with Ayden. I wanted it to be Eric's mom because i just don't want her in the delivery room again. With Ayden's delivery, she just stood at the end of the table like it was a free peak show, not helping at all. But after this experience with her watching Ayden for a day, I am having second thoughts. It's so hard to talk to her about things like this. She raised 6 boys and therefore she's "perfect" at taking care of baby boys. This is something that's going to offend her. I hope that she'll be able to get over this but knowing her that won't happen for a while. She threw a toddler like tantrum when my grandma bought Ayden's blessing outfit. She complains about never being able to buy him anything because my family has already bought it, but when it comes time that he needs something and we ask her about it, she can't help. I have gotten over that now. She's not the type to just go out and get something for anyone. Anyways, my time with Eric was really great yesterday. He constantly had to get me for thinking about Ayden. Haha. What can i say, I love my little man.

Knock Knock

During Ayden's nap time yesterday, I had him lay on his matress on the floor. He did really well. Any time i would come in to check on him he'd run back to the matress like he didn't want me to know he was playing. It was really cute. He wasn't crying when he woke up from his nap. Instead, he goes to his door and bangs on it. Haha. He cracks me up. I went ahead and had Eric turn his crib into the toddler bed when he got off work. We tried to get him in it last night but he kept climbing up the little rail and scared me. He's not able to climb into it either. He ended up just sleeping on his matress and that worked great. He slept, only waking up once like he always does. I love hearing him go to his door and knock. He's growing up too fast.

My Big Boy

For the past 2 months or so, Ayden has been geeting his leg stuck in the rails of his crib. I hate it when this happens. He screams so loud and just goes crazy trying to get it out(making it hurt worse). I have to get Eric to come and get him unstuck because I'm afraid i'll make it worse. This is really making things hard on me. I hate to see my baby get hurt and this has happened too many times. He's almost walking on his own...i'm sure he'll have it down within a month. I am thinking of getting him a toddler bed because he's just too active and constantly hurting himself in his crib. I am going to try laying his matress on the floor and see how he does with that first. This boy hates being constrained so i think it will be good for him. I don't want to feel like i'm doing this too soon, so if that's what you think then i don't really care to hear it. Wal Mart has an addorable set that is way cute and cheap. I refuse to get a wooden bed because Ayden would eat it and it would be ruined.

Feelings

I had an argument with Eric this morning. We never argue like this. I was already a little peeved at him for staying up with Mowen until 2am Tuesday, and then last night he came home and sat on the couch with his computer till 12. I guess it really got to me because our has is a mess and he told me on Tuesday that he'd help me clean Wednesday...i ended up working my butt off with an aching back while he just sat there. I ignored him the rest of the night waiting for him to ask what's wrong because i was obviously furious, but he never asked. Therefore, i went to bed with all those angry feelings and took it all out on him via msn messenger this morning. While words were exchanged, i still don't feel bad for what i said. I still don't believe the "i worked all day" excuse should get a working dad out of doing some work at home. Being a (pregnant) stay at home mom is just as hard and just as stressful. I know Eric wouldn't want my job. I should be getting more work done around the house during the day, but Ayden is a handful and i get exhausted just picking him up. Anyways, i did apologize for blowing up at him. I didn't get anything back though. Men!

I had my 32 week appointment today! I was a little nervous about it because i just barely failed my 1 hour glucose test at the last appointment and refused to do the 4 hour one. First of all, the same thing happened when i was pregnant with Ayden. Eric took off work and we spent 4 hours in a doctors office getting poked at every hour while feeling really sick, and nothing was wrong with me. Secondly, Eric can not get off work now for that long to watch the baby or be with me. And third of all, i don't have anyone to babysit. So, i didn't do the test. Must not have been a big deal because the doctor said everything is going perfectly and that he'll see me in 2 weeks. I told Eric how everything went and he said "You're good at popping out babies". Haha. The popping them out is pretty easy but the carrying them is the hard part. Well, for me at least.
I'll end this on a lighter note. I put Ayden to bed in just a diper last night because i needed to do his laundry. Sure enough, i went to get the little monkey out of his crib this morning, and there he stood smiling! His completely NAKED little self just standing there laughing. I don't know why he wants to take his diaper off. Well, actually, i would too. But why does he do this to me? It was pretty funny, i was just so glad he hadn't pooped yet.

Sticky

How is it possible for a nine month old to unscrew the lid of a sippy cup? Saturday, while drinking his mid-day apple juice to prepare him for his nap, Ayden managed to undo the top of his sippy cup and get the apple juice all over his playpen and himself. he was so sticky. I ended up just giving him a bath at Aunt Megan's. Also, earlier this week i went into his room to check on him and he was just standing there with his diaper undone! I swear this kid is going to make my life 10 times harder when his brother gets here. At least he can make me laugh! I was telling him to come here last night because he was trying to get Eric's friend's computer and he just looked at me, smiled, and started shaking his head no. Haha. I couldn't help but laugh. He got his hippo walker thing from granny yesterday and to my surprise, he can actually stand and walk with it. He just took off down the hall with it. We have one smart little boy.
I started cleaning the house a little bit yesterday. It's not really dirty, there is just always papers and toys laying around that make it look dirty. I decided to do some hard work since Eric was too busy with Mowen and i can't sleep unless he's beside me. I scrubbed the bathroom! I don't know why, but i can not get the motivation to do work like that during the day. It's always at night when i'm irritated at someone or something.
Tomorrow i'm down to my every 2 weeks appointments for this pregnancy. I'm scared to see how much i weigh...my belly looks huge! Friday is Ayden's 9 month check up. I hate taking him to get shots. He's supposed to be getting fluoride drops once a day, but i can't remember the last time i gave them to him. It's hard enough remembering feeding, changing, bathing him and brushing his teeth occasionally. At least we play all the time. Lol. Anyways, only 54 days till our little Axton is here. I am so ready to have 2 boys. It's time for my life to get more challenging, it's kinda boring right now.

one of those days

At this point, pregnancy is kicking my butt. I have been crying off and on all day and i hate it. I've been asking myself "am i a good mother? wife?" and all i can say is no. I don't give my son a bath everyday. I sometimes forget to give him his veggies. Our house isn't clean. I rarely cook dinner. I forget to eat(which isn't good for axton). I just think i suck at being a mother and wife right now. Maybe it's because i'm pregnant and just exhausted. I'm really disappointing myself. I want to be the mom that takes care of the kids, keeps the house clean, and has dinner ready every night. It can't be that hard right? Why do i feel like this? I want to do things with ayden during the day besides sitting at home. He loves getting out of the house. I guess anything we do outside of the house will cost money...and we just don't have any. I want to get a job or go to school...but i'm thinking that will never happen. We don't have anyone around us to help out with the boys. We need me to work so we can be more comfortable with money every month, but what about the kids? We can't afford daycare and we'd miss out on so much. I want to go to school for dental assisting but i know there is no way eric would stay at home with the boys at night so i could go to class. I guess these are all sacrifices i have to make as a mom. I want the best for my boys and would just like some help giving it to them. I need help!

The Secret Life

I really enjoy this show! It is so much like Bradford High School. Haha. Some of the acting, especially Ben's character, is over done but i still enjoy it. I love tuesdays now because of this show.

Ayden and i went out shopping for me some new underwear today. ( mine are starting to hurt my tummy) The type i like is hard to find. I went to 3 stores and gave up....i just don't enjoy shopping for myself. I think i actually hate it. I love shopping for other people though. I spent about 4 hours out and about today and picked up the cutest matching outfits for Ayden and Axton, new sippie cups, and 2 first birthday presents for Ayden. Nothing for me, but we had a good time. Ayden was very silly today. He loved getting people's attention and showing off his cuteness. He was still showing off for daddy when we picked him up for work. Eric loved it. He's usually not that silly when daddy gets home.

Don't say it

I went to the auto shop this morning to make sure the guy was still interested in our house, and he is. I gave him our phone number but not a price, since we haven't recieved the payoff amount from the bank. In the mail when i got home later was the letter from the bank. We've decided to ask for $224,000, which is under the $247,000 it's valued at. Eric's supposed to be finding a lawyer to handle all the paperwork and an appraiser if we need one. Anyway, that's how things are going with the house.

Ayden and I met Eric for lunch today at Applebee's. It was nice having something to eat that didn't get me sick. Ayden flirted with our blonde haired waitress the entire time. He is so funny. He was eating his fruit puffs and apple juice,but after a while got bored with them and went on to chewing the disgusting wooden table. I told him no and put my hand in his way. He bit me!(he's got a mouth full of teeth) I said "ouch " like i always do while Eric was trying to tell me not to...but before his words clicked in my head, i looked over at Ayden and his happy little smile was turned upside down. That is the most cutest and saddest face in the entire world. Apparently, he hates it when mommy says "ouch". I knew this but just wasn't thinking at the time. I love him to death but that little pouty face is so pathetic and sad. I hope he grows out of it. It's usually the same face he makes when i say no to something he really wants. He is an emotional little boy...takes after his parents.

Ayden is so brave! He's always letting go of his crib and standing on his own. When he falls on his butt he starts to giggle and clap his hands like he's so proud of himself. I love it. We are so blessed to have such a smart, healthy, and all together happy baby. He is my world!

I want this house

So i have some pics of the house we are wanting if we sell this one. It has so much room to work with. I'm already designing how i want everything. Hope we get enough equity for a good down payment with money left over for a little furniture and stuff. I love decorating, and having a space that defines me and my family means a lot to me. The total square footage on this house is 2,116 which is double what we are living in now. I think I'll call tomorrow and see if we can set up a walk through. We still don't know the payoff amount but at least we'll have it narrowed down to what house we want. I really can't wait to see it in person.

I heart shabby chic!

After watching an episode of Design Star a few weeks ago, I have come to love shabby chic style! I want to do our master bedroom in the new house around shabby chic. Eric's not too crazy about it but he said as long as he gets a "man room" it's fine. With 7 bedrooms to decorate I'm sure we can find one to make the "man room". I found this shabby chic bedroom collection at Target that i hope to get for my birthday. I just want to get the bedding there and try to find the furniture at the DI or yard sale and just fix it up with some white paint and sand paper.

When i got pregnant this second time i was really hoping for a girl and went out and got the cutest and most girly nursery collection i could find. Well, sure enough, our much desired girl turned out to be a boy. I wanted to decorate a girly room so bad. Since i haven't got my baby girl just yet I'm going to do everything i wanted in her room design in mine! (just not as childish) With three boys in the house, four if you count the dog, i think i deserve a little feminine space.

I am so anxious to hear from the bank about our payoff on the house. The house i found is a really good deal and I'd hate to loose out on it because the bank was too dang slow. I think i dreamed about those seven bedrooms all night. Haha. I will have some fun decorating this next house!

Starting to blog...

I really get bored at home and hope starting a blog will make me feel like i do actually have a life. Haha.

We are wanting to move out of Provo soon. We just don't feel like this is where we should be...it's hurting us financially and spiritually. (we don't like our ward here, so we don't go to church) The auto shop owner from next door actually came by this week and said he was interested in buying our house. He also said that he built the upstairs part of it. I am so excited. I want out of here so bad. We are waiting for a letter from the bank with our payoff amount before taking any further steps in selling the house. I have been looking for apartments, houses and condos though. I would be fine with an apartment but the prices are rediculous! They are more than our mortgage on this house is. And condos are just too small for us. I found a house in Ogden that i really want. It's in our price range and has more than enough space for us. 7 bedrooms, 2 baths for $93,000....how can i let that pass me by? Ogden isn't a "great" place, but it's the only place that has homes in our price range. I will love being close to Eric's mom, Aleisha, and my sister! I will finally have people to watch Ayden for me. Wow, that will be nice. I hope we can get it.

I am exhausted! Being pregnant for almost 2 years sure takes a toll on your body. I want to do more like go to the park and just get out of the house sometimes, but everything feels so hard. I just feel like crap every day and always have a headache. When Axton gets here...i hope to get better at doing things. Just anything but sitting at home watching HGTV and doing laundry.